OK, maybe not a panic attack but certainly a great deal of angst over the upcoming release of Kissing the Frogman.

It’s been 3 years since I released my last story, Stealing Liberties, and before that, it had been 2 years.  My life has changed completely in the past five years.  I’m not the same person who wrote The Path to Freedom.  I’ve grown, but I haven’t written a whole lot.  Thus the panic.

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You may be wondering what kind of writer takes that long between novellas when authors like Charlaine Harris (Sookie Stackhouse) and Lee Child (Jack Reacher) at least put out a full length novel every year.

Well, I’ll tell you…

I’m no Charlaine Harris or Lee Child but DAMN I love their work!

Did I mention how well I do with deadlines?

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(That’s not really how it works, usually something that seems minor goes overlooked and then it turns into a full blown crisis at the 11th hour, a la Ballantine’s Day.)  

And then I’m like…

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So right now, when everyone else is baking pies and cookies, I’m checking my manuscript and counting the hours on my fingers and toes to see if I can submit one last version before it goes out to readers because maybe, just maybe, the few words I add to it may make the difference between “OMG this sucks!” and “Yeah, that was worth a dollar.”

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Kissing the Frogman will be released on December 1st.

God, I hope it doesn’t suck.

Impostor syndrome (also spelled imposter syndrome, also known as impostor phenomenon or fraud syndrome) is a term coined in the 1970s by psychologists and researchers to informally describe people who are unable to internalize their accomplishments. Despite external evidence of their competence, those exhibiting the syndrome remain convinced that they are frauds and do not deserve the success they have achieved. Proof of success is dismissed as luck, timing, or as a result of deceiving others into thinking they are more intelligent and competent than they believe themselves to be. Notably, impostor syndrome is particularly common among high-achieving women,[1] although some studies indicate that both genders may be affected in equal numbers.[2]